MORE OF MY LIFE STORY
I was not raised in a religious home nor was I taught to believe that attending church or meetings had anything to do with my relationship with God. My mom talked to me about Jesus when I was very small. I remember talking to God, singing and writing from a very young age ‘songs to God.’ I would listen to music, dance around, played outside a lot with my sisters and brothers. I dreamed and prayed for the day to come when I would grow up and sing. When I was ten years old my earthly father was no longer in my life. Embarrassed to let anyone see my tears, I locked myself in the bathroom and cried. I could not understand why this was happening or what was going to become of my five brothers and sisters and my mom. I heard God say, “I will Father you and your brothers and sisters and I will be a husband to your mom.” I walked out of the bathroom and grew up confident that it was so. God kept His word.
The next time I recall hearing His voice or discerning His direction was when I was 18 years old going to school to be a police officer. In the middle of the first semester I heard, “You can be anything you want to be, or you can be what I have created you to be.” For three days I pondered those words and then made a decision to finish the semester and did not sign up for anymore school. I prayed for a voice to sing as I could not sing; began writing and singing, and playing guitar at age 19. I believed God was giving me a gift to share with others. So I started to go on the Military Base, sitting in the designated smoke-pit areas by the barracks, in hopes of talking to people about their lives. At times I would just sit out there for hours and play and sing until someone would approach me to inquire about what I was doing out there. My purpose and understanding in every conversation was to love people to Jesus. Loving people simply by being a friend, by writing a letter, by bringing them snacks, by playing a song, attending their graduation, giving them a ride to the airport, helping them any way possible.
In all the ways that God encouraged me, I would attempt to do my very best in giving what I had received. God accepted and loved me, so I would accept and love them. I experienced freedom in just being who God created me to be, so it brought great joy to my heart to see others become free and who they were meant to be just by a simple question that would bring the truth to their mind. Every individual and each of their circumstances were unique, but equally important to God. I would pray for God’s word to be seen in my eyes and smile and that His love would be the greatest in me.
One day at work (I worked an office job and I liked my job very much) one of my co-workers asked me to go to lunch with him. This man asked me a question that upon reflection causes me to see that God was still fathering me. He asked me, “Marcie what is that you want to do with your life?” My answer: I want to write and sing and play songs. Tell the world about Jesus and travel. The next question was, “What is keeping you from doing what it is you know you are supposed to be doing?” The immediate thought that came to mind to answer his questions was money. At that time, I worked so that I could have money to give to people and pay bills. There was no extra money to be saving up for “other” activities or future possibilities. After all, if the God that I serve owns the cattle on a thousand hills and makes all grace abound toward me so that in every circumstance I have what I need to do His will...the truth is: My job is keeping me from doing what it is that I know I am supposed to be doing. When I got back from lunch that day I sat in my office with the light off. I realized that God had used a man that did not even believe in Him to challenge me to take the next step into what I said I believed. I fasted and prayed on and off for about a month, and came to the conclusion that regardless of what I chose to do, it would have to be by faith. (Without faith it is impossible to please God…Hebrews 11:6)
So whether I decided to go or to stay, my decision would need to based on what I truly believed. I put my two week notice in and here I am seven years later. So many testimonies to tell of God’s amazing faithfulness to me in so many different places…One day at a time seeking to do those things which are pleasing in His sight. Seeking His Kingdom, Delighting myself in Him, and God keeps His promises. He has given me the desires of my heart.
The journey of my life has unfolded into writings and songs, thanks and praise to God. Friends have become my family. Many experiences I continue to draw from; and give to others along the way. My desire in all that I say and do is to represent the King of Glory. In all my weakness HE IS SUCH STRENGTH. I earnestly hope and pray that my life would challenge others to take hold of the truth, to live love, and be who God has created them to be to the praise of His glory. Not drawing attention to myself, or others or on circumstances, but beholding The Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the whole world.
“May we choose the harder right instead of the easier wrong, and never to be content with a half truth when the whole truth can be won. Endow us with the courage that is born of loyalty to all that is noble and worthy, that scorns to compromise with vice and injustice and knows no fear when truth and right are in jeopardy.”
The story of my life…love… and lessons learned is the outcome of this website in writings and songs, thanks and praise to God. This opportunity to tell my history is answer to prayers from long ago. God is forever faithful in keeping His promises. Jesus, may ALL EYES BE ON YOU throughout my life until the very end, Amen.
The next time I recall hearing His voice or discerning His direction was when I was 18 years old going to school to be a police officer. In the middle of the first semester I heard, “You can be anything you want to be, or you can be what I have created you to be.” For three days I pondered those words and then made a decision to finish the semester and did not sign up for anymore school. I prayed for a voice to sing as I could not sing; began writing and singing, and playing guitar at age 19. I believed God was giving me a gift to share with others. So I started to go on the Military Base, sitting in the designated smoke-pit areas by the barracks, in hopes of talking to people about their lives. At times I would just sit out there for hours and play and sing until someone would approach me to inquire about what I was doing out there. My purpose and understanding in every conversation was to love people to Jesus. Loving people simply by being a friend, by writing a letter, by bringing them snacks, by playing a song, attending their graduation, giving them a ride to the airport, helping them any way possible.
In all the ways that God encouraged me, I would attempt to do my very best in giving what I had received. God accepted and loved me, so I would accept and love them. I experienced freedom in just being who God created me to be, so it brought great joy to my heart to see others become free and who they were meant to be just by a simple question that would bring the truth to their mind. Every individual and each of their circumstances were unique, but equally important to God. I would pray for God’s word to be seen in my eyes and smile and that His love would be the greatest in me.
One day at work (I worked an office job and I liked my job very much) one of my co-workers asked me to go to lunch with him. This man asked me a question that upon reflection causes me to see that God was still fathering me. He asked me, “Marcie what is that you want to do with your life?” My answer: I want to write and sing and play songs. Tell the world about Jesus and travel. The next question was, “What is keeping you from doing what it is you know you are supposed to be doing?” The immediate thought that came to mind to answer his questions was money. At that time, I worked so that I could have money to give to people and pay bills. There was no extra money to be saving up for “other” activities or future possibilities. After all, if the God that I serve owns the cattle on a thousand hills and makes all grace abound toward me so that in every circumstance I have what I need to do His will...the truth is: My job is keeping me from doing what it is that I know I am supposed to be doing. When I got back from lunch that day I sat in my office with the light off. I realized that God had used a man that did not even believe in Him to challenge me to take the next step into what I said I believed. I fasted and prayed on and off for about a month, and came to the conclusion that regardless of what I chose to do, it would have to be by faith. (Without faith it is impossible to please God…Hebrews 11:6)
So whether I decided to go or to stay, my decision would need to based on what I truly believed. I put my two week notice in and here I am seven years later. So many testimonies to tell of God’s amazing faithfulness to me in so many different places…One day at a time seeking to do those things which are pleasing in His sight. Seeking His Kingdom, Delighting myself in Him, and God keeps His promises. He has given me the desires of my heart.
The journey of my life has unfolded into writings and songs, thanks and praise to God. Friends have become my family. Many experiences I continue to draw from; and give to others along the way. My desire in all that I say and do is to represent the King of Glory. In all my weakness HE IS SUCH STRENGTH. I earnestly hope and pray that my life would challenge others to take hold of the truth, to live love, and be who God has created them to be to the praise of His glory. Not drawing attention to myself, or others or on circumstances, but beholding The Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the whole world.
“May we choose the harder right instead of the easier wrong, and never to be content with a half truth when the whole truth can be won. Endow us with the courage that is born of loyalty to all that is noble and worthy, that scorns to compromise with vice and injustice and knows no fear when truth and right are in jeopardy.”
The story of my life…love… and lessons learned is the outcome of this website in writings and songs, thanks and praise to God. This opportunity to tell my history is answer to prayers from long ago. God is forever faithful in keeping His promises. Jesus, may ALL EYES BE ON YOU throughout my life until the very end, Amen.
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